bora bora tak dapat pd pun boleh lahh. ahahha

last month was a great month. spend my birthday with my parents and family especially my sweet 59 mother. my new workmates si sebby and amy kidnaped me and we went to pd for two days one night stay just to celebrate my birthday. hahahh. konon sweet gla ah tu. we stayed at this hotel what was the name again. selesa beach resort kut. hahah. its funny cause i remember oone time me and my friends trespassing this hotel few years ago just to hang by the beach. mcm org ape pnjat tembok bagai. sebby was so cute he bought me cake from pasar malam and suprise me by the beach. although mak impikan cake red velvet tapi that one cake from pasar malam sure did made my day. we hang by the beach for so long. with all the food that we bought from pasar malam that night. hahaha. me and amy beli jagung rebus few sticks and eat them with pleasure of our feet being soaked in the sea salt water. it was a good day to remember. we hang out by the beach till almost 3 in the morning and suddenly i heard voices of man. was so weird because i look around and theres no one except for the three of us. tbe tbe baru nampak ade dua kepala coming from the sea. was so creepy xtau dari mane dua org tu datang. tak nampak pun ade org mandi ke ape. we were guessing they were the foreigners who cant afford safe flight and landing. hahah. and that moment end our night. hahaha. now this moment as well will end my night today. goodnight world.

hunger game

lepak kedai radhi coner kat usj 4, they have the best mushroom gravy there. if nak compare dgn makan place around subang area lah. as usual lah aku bawak wewe si kental as usual aku order teh o ais. official malaysian drinks. and order chicken chop dua. bukan aku makan dua. ish. aku makan satu je. then abang tu boleh tanya "makan eh?" dengan muka xberfikir sebelum tanya. aku apa lagi perut dah lapar. " eh xlah bang saya nak buang" xde sebarang bunyi kedengaran. abng muka seolah meneran benda keras. sorry ah bang. eden tak sengajo.

dont knw why

i really dont understand myself now. why. what happend. i keep on thingking bout that one specific person so much lately. after so long i tried not to. how can tht one person effect you so much. ill be happy to see you smile. ill be worry to knw your sigh. i get jelous.i miss you so damn much. if i could turn back time ill make sure i wont make the same mistakes. hoping that the old you must still be there somewhere. the one tht can make me smile in just a second. the one that time seems to be moving so fast to be with.the one that i would cross an ocean for. the one ill stand up for.the perfect, sweetheart and loving person to the stupid, boring,lame me. but why nw, i thought theres no more. i tried so hard to use time to forget. my heart is just too weak. keep on reminding myself that theres no more me in you just to get through the day. your smile is not mine anymore. but why still i cant stop thingking about you. why is heart so stupid and stubborn. ill just continue life. as the same. and i just realize it now. that how much effort ive done to win your heart before ended up with that much effort i hve to putt in now to forget you. please bare with me heart.

friend

kinda confused with you. you act like shes the only friend you got. and well guess what. you cant force good friendship. you have to earn em. shes not yours you knw. i knw youre better then this. i can actually see the good side of you. put away those mean words and demoralizing acts. i can respect you if you really want to. but not by doing all that. and most importantly, i can be friends with anyone i want. and i can go out with anyone i want. its my decision to make and my life to live. you dont own me. not a bit. sorry yaw

you knw wht im saying

sleep wake up and sigh aint the way to live life knock down we get up and run. swagging life like cha ching ching people always does who cares pasal grammar.i dont give a damn.human aint perfect so does our grammar dont care what they say,show the middle finger and do the lindsay lohan face thay cant effect us.nope not tonight.tonights our night. not only the western people whos hair were blond and eyes are blue can be charming and look bestt all ze time asian like me whose body weight are above average ( a bit only) hell can look hot in my sarung and shades, not having fair skin aint stop you from dancing and bitching, just like that nicki not so fair minaj.people can still hit like.kontra kut semua colour dia guna. and everyone was like 'macam bestttt jeee diaaa nii'" suka lahhh suka lahhh" love can be given to anyone even strangers. peace.

where no one knows my name

life will never be perfect.well i guess. dont knw if yours is. now playing boston by augustana.yeap its on replay guys. i think ill start over, i think ill start a new life . no one knows my name. and probably boston is so not happening i guess. hahah. there is always something from your past that hurt you just to think about it even to have a glance of it. well yeah,thats what we human call life.everyone lie everyone cheat everyone must have that bad thing in he or she.everyone have their own 'dark side' as alia's my workmates aka senior at workplace once said. i really dont judge people though.i really dont.prefer to think about my life,my stories. well its not that interesting i guess.i never been travel across country or whatever. had the urge but finance problem i guess. but how bad the experienced was ill swallow all of it.ill continue and hoping there will be better tomorrow. ill leave all that behind. i cry. im not superman.i just wont let anyone see. im more than something.

permata di langit- diamonds in the sky

walaweh.rindunya aku untuk menulis seolah olah berkata kata pada rakan imaginasi di laman siber. siapa pun engkau di sana,terima kasih kerana membaca.engkau paling seronok. (you're the best) sudah berkudis lamanya aku tak menulis dan juga menekan punat keyboard ni. ya sebelum ku lupa.aku sudah bergelar jururawat yg sah.aku ada kuasa untuk menyuntik lemak peha siapa sahaja. :) 2013 sudah.tahun ni umur aku mencecah 20-an. masih bergetah lagi kalau abang abang sasa kata. aku sehat, tapi kalau sehat a.k.a berat yang korang mahukan, maaf. aku sudah lama berhenti dari memeiksa jarum jam pada kotak penimbang. bak kata pepatah buang yg keruh, jgn peduli kata penimbang.

one litre of tear

must watch korean drama.one litre of tear. berani bet sepuluh hengget siapa yang tak nangis tengok drama ni.saya yang kental lagi strong pun dengan sewenang wenang nya boleh mengalir air mata ku yang berharga bak crystal ini. :) it is very nice to watch.and yeahh.im one of the busuk busuk people who watch korean drama. so what.hahhahaha.

i miss you.i really do

ahad 5/2/2010 1246 am.my beloved pet ramli sarip just died.hes been a good friend. and words cant express how much he mean to me. sorry sgt if layen tak jaga ramli elok elok. sorry. thanks for listening to me night and day.love you poreber en eber. :(

quotes

biar hidungku kembang,janji hatiku senang.

boredom

If you have never messed up or done anything wrong in your life,then please,
feel free to judge me.

harini hari kau,esok hari isnin.

tengah hari tadi lepas makan.


"woi min,kau tak reti nak basuh pinggan eh?"
"mane akidah kau?"dengan nada marah.
tanya aku kepada abangku yang hanya membiarkan pinggan di sinki tanpa membasuh.


memang celaka.pemalas sungguh nk basuh pinggan,aku paling pantang bab bab mcm ni.sebab nanti akhirnya aku yang membasuh pinggan diorang.

abang abangku seperti sudah ada habit untuk membiarkan pinggan di sinki lebih lebih lagi bila aku sedang khusyuk meratah ayam di meja. mereka seperti sudah melakar moto "siapa last makan,basuh pinggan". kadang kadang aku perasan yang mereka seolah olah berkomplot untuk memastikan aku terseksa.
si kundalee (abg aku yg berkulit hitam manis) pulak dan dan depan ibu lah dia nak menyapu,mop lantai bagai.macam aku tak tau itu hanyalah helah untuk mendapatkan duit poket lebih.setiap kali ibu melihat mereka membuat kerja rumah,aku akan dimarahi ibu kerana tidak menolong membuat kerja rumah.keluarlah topik anak dara sunti bagai.haihh.yang paling menyirap si kundalee yang mukanya tepat di blakang muka ibu akan tersenyum puas dan mengembangkan hidungnya melihat aku dibebel ibu.kurang hajar punya kundalee.

betapa humblenya saya

yess,setelah ber abad akhirnya college puaka-ku memberi cuti seminggu. mungkin atas dasar tolak ansur. peratus nak dapat cuti dr kolej boleh disamakan dengan peratus seseorang menghidap barah payudara. simple cakap mmg susah lah mak nak dapat cuti.so tade apa nak buat.aku hnya menghempaskan badan ku sepanjang hari di rumah.


harini aku tidak keluar ke mane pun,dengan impian ingin merehatkan badan aku yang selalu dipaksa untuk bergerak ni,


petang tadi aina ajak main futsal.

aina: yen jum main futsal esok
layen: you rasa i boleh main ke?
aina: ape ni? jum lahhh.for fun
layen: i bukan apa ohh,i lari kedepan perut i tinggal blakang.sapa nk kutip?
ainaa: hahhahahhaha,jum lahh
layen: siapa lagi yang hodoh main?
aina: dee,syaza,safiah.alahh kita kita je
layen: tak nak lah semua cantik. yg hodoh takde ke?
ainaa: hahhahhh. kita kita je.yang lain i tak ajak lagi
layen: semuaya kurus,yang gemok takde ke?
ainaa: huh?
layen: ajak lah yang gemok sorang,baru ada saingan.
aina: hahahhahha,okay nnti i cari,jumpa esok
layen: cun,sekarang jugak i warm up :)


teserlah confident level aku memang rendah

semua orang bolehh tuliss.tapi bila nak luah xsemua ada telur.

woahh baru habiss posting 8minggu kat hospital and clinic desa batu 13 puchong,haihh kalau dulu dulu je kita bolehh jumpa hamba yang bolehh dijual beli,sekarang anda hanya perlu pergi ke klinik desa batu 13 puchong,cari seorang perempuan yang berbadan gempal becermin mata dan muka iras iras era fazira,yesss smack that! akulah hamba yang anda cari. pehhhhhh penat glaa kerjaaa.lagi lagi kat hospitall.aku rasa tumit aku macam dah retak macam lantai rumahh kawan aku kat tigkat 25 pangsapuri bakawali di ibu kota. btw aku tak faham lah orang klau bagi nama blok pangsapuri kat sini mesti letak nama bunga.besepahh pulak tu.semua minat berkebun agaknya.kalau tak anggerik,bakawali,bunga raya,rafflesia,sri orkid xpun meranti.aku berani cagar emass mak aku lahh, yang korang mesti penah dengar salah satu bunga ni jadi nama blok pangsapuri.

okayyy back to the story

aku tak faham kenapa kakak kakak (staff nurse kat hospital tu macam orang bisu baru dapat cakap.pehh bila bercakap tak semangat pulakk,suruh buat kerja macam takleh cakap elok elok. mcam aku jauhh je nak cakap kuat kuat bagai.dia ingat aku hambaaa tok moyang dia beli agaknya.aku panassssss je. dia ingat aku gemok,perut aku boncet,aku takleh angkat peha aku terajang dia agaknya.
nasebb aku fikir jahitan celah seluar aku dah start tetas jee.kalau benang seluar aku tak tetass memang aku dah terajang akak tu.

akak perasan cntik : wehh dik! apa kau buat berdiri kat situ hah!(volume maksimum)
adik yang cantk lagi humble (aku) : kenapa kak saya nak chart temperature ni.
akak perasan cantik ingat dia kurus dia bagus :kau tak reti nak cari kerja eh!
adik yang gemok tapi hatinya mulia : akak apahal? (muka bengis)
akak pakai bedak compact murah : aku nak kau pegi ambik blood pump tok aku sekarang!
adik baik suara sedap : tak payah lah nak jerit jerit. (menyirap)
akak muka macam ketiak : kau pegi amik sekarang! (volume max digital surrounding)
adikk comel badan wangi : letak kat kat mana!! ( jerit balik)


haihhh yang sedih nya last last aku buat jugakk apa dia suruhh.cissss. siall lahhh.
benda aku paling regret sekali this year. haihhh.

So many thngs going around.i just wanna stay fresh and live my life tn the fullest with anyone i call friend.:-)
My final semester exam is coming.and my carry marks are just border line.yeah so im going to try a bit harder
This time.just a bit.hahahah.

Yeahh peacee out bebehh!

nursing is in me

Gambar assgnment subcutaneous injection site yg aku hantar.sape kata nurse x cool. :-)




Yes.seperti biasa kelass teramat lah menyangapkan.lebih lagi bila pensyarah anda pure from bangalor,India
hanya dengan mendengarr beliau berkata bolehh diibaratkan seperti meneguk eempat botol ubat batuk atau pun
benadryl nama saintifiknya.ataupun ibarat menelan sepuluh tablet panadol @anti-pyretic.
Semua rakan kelasku terkakai berjuang untuk berjaga semasa pensyarah pure ku ini mengajar. Kuliah aku x seperti
kuliah rakan lain di universiti.kuliah aku lebih kepada kelas tuisyen kasturi di usj 9.
Aku hanya belajar tentang manusia sepanjang masa. Dari atas kebawah dan bawah keatas.
Harini aku belajar tentang kawasan pemberian suntikan subkutanius. Ataupun subcute injection site.
Selalunya subcute injection diberi untk memberi insulin.untuk pt yg blood glucose levell dia tinggi.
Ayah aku antara pesakit (IDDM) insulin dependant diebetes melitus.ayahku memerlukan insulin sepanjang hayatnya.
Kerana badannya kurang pengeluaran insulin.tinggi risiko untuk aku kene padah yg sama.harap harap x ahh. tapi aku tak pernah rasa apa yg aku belajar ni sia sia.
best jugak apa. :)

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awak baca eh.

awak jangan down down okayy,awak nak bahu saya ada bahu,
awak nak hati saya ada hati,awak nak peha pon saya boleh bagi,
tapi kalau awak nak bahagian kepak saya tak dapat nk tolong,tapi saya janji saya lari laju ke kentucky beli yang spicy.

fifi jgn lah cakap macam tu dah!

hati hempedu dan jantung saya

Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed, to those who still love even though they've been hurt before :')


saya tak pernah terlintas nak membandingkan kelebihan saya dengan kawan.saya tidak rasa perlu untuk membangga diri.apa makna kawan kalau macam lawan.dah lama rasa pedih cuma sekarang baru saya nampak lukanya.

everything happend for a reason

everythinghappend for a reason.but in your case sumpahh tak tau apa reason dia.
lately ive been so stress about my mom.she is sooo overreacting. im 20 not 2.haihh.
i do think that i need a vacay or go somewhere far just to ease my mind.i just realize that we wont stay the same for all our years.somehow we will change,maybe from this person to a whole new person.im not saying that im change or i love changes.fact is i dont.i dont want to,i dont think there is anything wrong with me that i need to.im fine with whoever im hangging with.what i do now.i dont care.im just a person that lovee enjoying my life hangging with the one i love and care.just being happy in any condition.that is 'peace' for me. :))
what should i do is to just feel good about myself.pray to god that everything will be fine and great in the future.okayy.dah habiss luah luah.baru je habis pack pack baju nak balik hostel yang tak jauh mana.nak kene mandi jap.tak tau kenapa tapi saya sukaaa sangat mandi amalam malam.sejukk je nak tido nanti.semalam kalah main scrabble dgn jijol.hahahha.best have fun dengan member buat benda bodoh..benda bodoh jadi tak bodoh mana bila kitorang sama sama.aww aww.
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hai saya layen.saya kuattt makan.lari cepat mengah.kalau saya suka satu benda tu saya sanggup jalan jauh just nak dptkan ia.rambut saya dah panjang bak penyapu yg sering dibeli ibu di mydin.bulan puasa ni nafsu saya berkobar kobar seakan akan ia mengejar cita cita zaman mudanya.petang tadi saya ke bazar dengan mei lyng rakan baik saya.saya nampak air jagung,eh bukan,perut saya nampak air jagung.mulut saya terus berkata pada mei lyng wahh dut airr jagung nampak sedap,ma feverettt ai likeee. mei lyng trus jawab belilah dut.(dia mmmg xpandai jaga nafsu kawannya,bebel je pandai) aku terus order pada abang jual air tu.

aku:bang air tembikai satu besar,air mangga satu besar jugak.
abang:okay adik cantikk yang sehat.
aku:senyum anggun
abang : okayy siap.enam hengget dik.


setelah jalan lima enam tapak.aku berkata pada mei lyng
aku:dutt dutt kau perasan x aku dok cakap kat kau pasal air jagung tu sedapp,
tapi aku order tembikai dengan mangga instead.
mei lyng:aah la dut.asal hah?
aku:ntah la dut,nafsuu dohh>
masing masing geleng kepala.aku pun ta faham kenapa aku order air lain.aku sendiri xleh jawab kenapa.bak kataku,bukan aku yang nak perut aku yg mintak.ishhh terukk btull dah ni.