dont knw why

i really dont understand myself now. why. what happend. i keep on thingking bout that one specific person so much lately. after so long i tried not to. how can tht one person effect you so much. ill be happy to see you smile. ill be worry to knw your sigh. i get jelous.i miss you so damn much. if i could turn back time ill make sure i wont make the same mistakes. hoping that the old you must still be there somewhere. the one tht can make me smile in just a second. the one that time seems to be moving so fast to be with.the one that i would cross an ocean for. the one ill stand up for.the perfect, sweetheart and loving person to the stupid, boring,lame me. but why nw, i thought theres no more. i tried so hard to use time to forget. my heart is just too weak. keep on reminding myself that theres no more me in you just to get through the day. your smile is not mine anymore. but why still i cant stop thingking about you. why is heart so stupid and stubborn. ill just continue life. as the same. and i just realize it now. that how much effort ive done to win your heart before ended up with that much effort i hve to putt in now to forget you. please bare with me heart.